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Have you ever been terrified of your own mind? Like the thoughts that your "hearing" or "thinking" of aren't yours? That something has hoodwinked its way into your brain that wasn't there before?

Lately I've been thinking in ways that I haven't before. Nothing scary I promise. Just that I haven't been feeling much like myself, similar to waking up in another dimension. A place where I am physically am the same but the world isn't mine. I feel like a science fiction movie.

I guess I've been so busy fretting over school and work I haven't set time aside to be a normal human being. But then I find my self in a fear of social interactions. I am however shoving myself out of this phobia by talking with people about unimportant information that is quite general. Like "oh hi I know you from work. how are you?" or "Oh you have this class too? Whats your major?" And then I become all weird and distant. I may have the social skills of a tree that blooms in the spring then becomes bare in the winter but one day I'll become that withstanding bloomed tree of all seasons.

I am more alike the changing seasons than I could have known.

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