Rough Times and Empty Pockets

I hate money. To me it carries no value except for a migraine. I'm constantly worried if I have enough in my account to pay my bills and I have to weigh out if what I'm staring at is worth sliding my little plastic card to buy it. Its color is green for a reason, it symbolizes greed and jealousy. It stresses people and turns them into zombies. I don't like it, I absolutely loathe it. Money is just printed, color paper from a TREE and is not worth it. Sorry I just had to get that out there. I understand how you have to have money to live but its no secret I hate it. Money deludes people into constantly thinking of how to make more of it and as soon as possible.

I don't know why I dislike the fact of numbers on a inked green piece of paper so much nor why it bothers me so. I guess its the fact that like being paranoid, I keep thinking that one day I'll have to say, "I'm sorry I don't have the money right now can I pay you when I do?" And the answer being, "I'm sorry, but I can't let you do that. I'd like to but theres company policy." It terrifies me to think that I'm beginning to drown in open water instead of simply treading it. It's also the fear of realizing that I failed to be an adult and have to face my family with the I-told-you-so look in their eyes.

But in other news, I finally found my camera charger! I've been so excited and couldn't wait to try it out again. I haven't seen it in months and then poof! there it is. Its so amazing how you never really miss things until they're gone and they wont be coming back. I can't wait to really get to take great pictures and show them to all of you! Hopefully they'll be really neat but I haven't convinced myself of that yet since its just a little ole digital camera.

I don't know how to explain it really, the joy of

seeing an amazing photograph in a little screen that provokes an emotion of some kind while being beautiful in every eye that even takes a glance at it. Its like watching a little one walk or talk for the first time. Every memory is a moment we'll never forget, even if we forget the words to our favorite song. Its like something just clicks, and theres nothing better in the world when it does.

Live. Laugh. Love. Life.