Wonderlanded

I apologize dearly for my lack of communication to the outside world, lately it seems as if all I can do is be trapped in this wonderland state of mind I have. Its like becoming a shell inside yourself without realizing that your doing it in the first place.

I feel as if I'm missing something or if I'm purposely shoving things out of my life because I'm scared of something. What ever the case may be I need to take a big dose of courage and face it all head on. It's not like if I run or turn away from my problems that they'll just disappear from behind my back. This isn't the Bermuda Triangle, honey. Maybe I should just shed my inhibitions instead of hiding behind a shy curtain, and be real instead of a facade.

Burn the mask from my face and let them know I'm here to stay and I won't let them see the trembling cracks in my statue. Pretending only gets us so far today, everything we do requires identification. Soon the thoughts in my head won't be hidden and they'll know everything.

Now it seems as if I'm super busy and I can't keep anything straight. Between working on things, getting ready to take the ACT, working, family and trying to hang out with friends, I'm loosing sight of who I was and I demand my confidence back right now. I am me dang it and I will not let anyone compromise that for their own selfish games. In the words of a great musician, "YOU WILL NOT DESTROY ME."